fOr the paSt few days ... i'm somehow feelin wierd and lost " maybe "
read a post on facebook by one of my dearest ...straight after that brought tears down unknowingly.
i have never felt like this at any point of my life ...
emotionally unstable.
maybe it's due to the long hours of work without rest ..and the things i see in everyday life....
old lady with very bad back collectin carton with push cart.......
a despression gal breaking down in the middle of no where... the poor bf tryin his best to calm her down...
so many sad things in life all appearin in front of my eyes ....
drained me down completely ... even though i'm fortunate comparing to those people ...
another part of me was infact tellin me ... ending everything would have been the best solution.
i'm drained and for once i admit .... i'm emotionally unstable ..
Monday, August 9, 2010
hummmm.... shOuld have been a gOod day ... guess i'm totally drained and i can't do anything about it ....
feelin really wierd and down for no good reason ... that i can explain ...
what have i gotten myself to ... i have walked thru this road one too many times to even memories what's it should be all about ...but somehow ...i'm feelin so god damn lost ....
fOr the past few niGhts i have been having funny dreams ....Dreams of i'm flirting witha good friend .... and worst ... next dream i'm kissin someone passionately ... i can't even see who the hell is she ..
had a good sat night with the guest dj , spinning trace thru out ... the boys n me dancin on podium for once .... but ... end of the night was just a ok .. nothing spectacular ....and i have drained myself out totally ...
tOday all the suDden i have the urGed buried in me ... tRying tO Only sPeaks Of what's i'm feElin within ....
tOwaRds my new and Old fRiends ... i'm alWays sincere ..and true ..nvr Once i dOubted anything Or anyone ....
i miGht lay quieT On alOt Of thinGs but that dOesn't mean that i'm plain dumb Or an idiOt .... i'm just beliving On ignorance is blissed ....
i miGht nOt chOse tO cOnfrOnt, simply beCos i rather u tell me ....
when time's uP and i'm .... i will nvR lOok baCk ... ...pls tReasuRe what ever bit Of me that's left ...
fOr i can Only say i wOn't have anythinG left fOr very lOng .