Hey, life kind of speeding up
moving at such fast pace.
Think somehow change me into a
much better person as a whole.
After so many met up with old buddies
during the chinese new year period.
Left a thought that kept me wondering
for the past weeks.
Seeing most of my friends married
and with kids.
Put a smile on my face,
yet left a scar in my heart.
Leaving me in deep thoughts,
what have i been doing all these years.
Burying myself with hatred and
never ending of justice not made.
Had somehow turns me into a runner.
Running away every second i can,
unable to face reality.
Even though i put up a strong outlook.
During this period of time,
i have met lots of new friend
as well knowing friends the 2nd time
of my life, after losing contact for more than 12 years.
To the both of ya, ^^
the 2 lovely princess,
Cindy and Jade
Thank you.
Thank you for giving me the opportunity
of knowing both of u after all this years.
Sorry i yet to recall how i know u and how u look
like when younger. hehee ^^
Along the past weeks,
a dear friend look at me,
and ask me a question that shocked me.
Aj, u seem to be searching for something.
i can't give her any answer, cos people around me
and myself do not and can't come out
with what i'm searching for.
Than she said,
U are searching for the
STRENGTH
the strength that will push u forward
in achieving what u have been aiming for.
Her word left me stunned.
For such a common yet simple word of daily live
i can't even see it.
She woke up a big part of me.
which left me thinking.
Thoughts of things maybe i have
dream of yet never dare admit
or see it.
Thank you, Vanessa for waking me up.
Cheers and may u find the happiness u're
searching for and the career u're aiming at.
Thru' this shortest period of my life
so many things happened.
Sorting out my life,
detailing every steps to be taken,
planning what should be done,
what to face.
Filled up my days for the past weeks.
whahaha i can say one thing.
OmG, so damn drained hehee.
but what the heck,
if it's gonna bring me to where i want.
These are very small things even to mention.
Hopefully i can continue blogging for 3 years.
as i have given myself 3 years to
get out all the shit i'm in and bring myself
to the place i wanna be.
Seeing friends married,
having a kid.
I want my little gal as well ^^
a little princess that i can pamper and
dote whahah think i'm going crazy.
But that will be the ultimate goal
i will be aiming at though.
wish me luck ya.
Stumble upon a friends' blog today.
something that kind of upset me a little.
well people, somehow my past threads
have been taking about relationships.
Keep word in a relation,
is to keep it simple.
Once it's simple.
everything will be perfect.
Dearest, love is something
to give without expecting,
trust without questioning.
always placing urself in
the other party's shoe
of how he/she will feel
goes a long long way.
when met up with problems,
work it out hand in hand.
not pushing the blame
to each other,
or bearing all the faults,
in self conviction.
In love there's no such thing.
If they exist, u might wanna
have second thoughts about everything.
If a break up if such a simple
meaningless words that can be uttered
out at the verge of anger.
without any hesitation,
u ought to really spare some thoughts.
Think about it !
Sorry For the slow updates..
hahah i don't even know,
anyones' reading what i wrote lol
whahah anyway ...
Thank you my friends,
bro's and sis's
for being there.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
First Of All,
HaPpY valEntInEs' Day tO all True lOvers.
Wheather is it a true saint day or not,
seems like no one really cares. To many, today's a day lovers celebrating their love for one another. A day to show their appreciation towards each other. ^^ Have any ever wonder,
Would u want a lover that only appreciate u,
Pamper u, and love u on the only one day on 14th Feb
of every other year,
with every other couples showing their love for each other ? ^^ Or are u one that long for everyday of ur life, ur half is treating u like a valentine. First i would sincerely like to apologized to all
in advance if u're offended.
To me,
being able to meet ur half is a blessing in this life. Love isn't just need to be shown to the public
for that one day in the calender year. If there's really love in u, every single day is a valentines day. Not only on the day,
where florist makes their killing
( i wanna have a shop in future myself^^- so take no offence ) When ur poor love is already so tired out from work
or from walking just to get ur present, yet still got to join a long Q just to have dinner with u in a crowded restaurant filled with many other couples. On this day.
- to the gals ^^ :
Does that really make this dinner special ?
- to the guys ^^:
Do u really want a valentine just for this day only ?
If only true hearts' are involve in ur relationship, all this are just too superficial.
What really matter most,
is out of that many people in the world u found each other.
That's the out most importance. That's in fact what valentines' day are meant to be. It's not only on 14th Feb,
u will need to show ur love.
But through out the days of ur life,
every single day should be valentines' day.
Not saying pampering ur love one with flowers and expensive gifts.
But, letting ur feelings made known to each out, how wonderful life have been ever since u found them. Loving, appreciating them of who the are. At any day of the calender year.
i too have been in love and out, one too many times in my life. Learning from each failure of a relationship.
Hopefully to become a better person.
Waiting for my soul mate to appear.
Guess what,
She got lost ..
without a GPS. Whahaha.. i can only tell myself,
have faith in what love's all about, and wait. ^^ Maybe i will find her one day,
maybe i will not ^^.
This is life.
Waiting for my lost valentine. <3
Wonderful - 4th Feb - 13 Feb 2008
12:48 PM
Woah .. whahah haven't been updating much for the past
two weeks, kind of busy with work work n more work.
Chinese new year rush.
Time flies, well frankly i can't really remember the
downs of life during this short period.
Seems like the good n beautiful memories are much worth
remembering.
humm.. is that good or bad,
well, many will say " yeah.. should be living at the brighter side of life"
For me, personally, i treasure both good and bad as much.
Good makes u a happier person though,
But knowing the bad, makes u a better person.
something interesting happen this festive season.
In my whole entire life i have never never ever spent
so much money on clothings.
And this year, i did..
whahah well it sure pinched when i did my calculation.
But, i discover something.
Good or bad whahah i seriously don't know lol.
At the end of the first day,
After a day of shopping along i came home
with like 6 bags of clothings lol
Funny thing is that,
i realized i have turn more like a woman.
I'm actually happy, smiling to myself admiring the
new clothings that i bought, while hanging them up.
whahahaha... i was like OmG .. What the hEll is happening to me lol
Never mind about that, second day was even worst whahah,
when shopping again with a bro, thot will spent less
but in the end, spent as much whahahh
and what's more interesting was,
i was bragging about the new shoes i bought to my mom
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON !!
whaha.. this chinese new year was pretty well spent.
Even though i didn't manage to get too much sleep but all's worth it.
Lots' of catching up with old friends'
as well as new ones ^^.
Ang Paos Ang Paos n Ang paos ..
even though isn't much but it's the luck that came with it^^
Isn't that bad a week i must say ^^.
Thanks to u all you people that makes my life so wonderful.
miss ya all
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Busy week - mY pReCiOus - 28th Jan - 2 Feb 2008
2:06 AMBusy busy busy ..
Seems like this the only words in life for me now
Out of the tight schedule,
whaha i'm blessed to have found myself a treasure,
a bOlster !! my PreCiOus!!
Thanks babe for everything,
atleast my emotional soul
have been comforted since the day i found ya.
Everything else in life still in one piece though.
stress come with every waking hour.
But it's what u looking for in life.
i'm kind of simple,
A good jobs that pays well.
Good friends to share my life thru'
and most of all,
i'm still looking for my soul mate.
hope that she's not lost or i'll have to get her
the lastest GPS device lOl
For the past weeks have been Drink Drank Drunk
still whahah ..
*shanon, i know life is nvr easy.. but no matter what happens in life,
what kind of words or action ur parents shows.
trust me, till the end of time , when all ur friends leave u.
they will still be there for u.
Try not to take it so hard, for everyone live with stress everyday,
difference is just the degree each is being put thru'
and how they cope with it k.
remember something gal,
love with no expectation of being love in return.
Give without any thank u.
when u don't expect,u won't get hurt.
ok sweetiez.. be strong, i know u can..