Recently many things have been happening,
kind of bz with work and lots of other stuff.
Bonds between friends breaking
Drifting apart because of stupid reasons.
Why must there be so much secrets and lies,
between friends.
No doubt, we live life wearing masks,
to hide away our weakness and fear.
But do remember something,
if we are predestine to meet each other,
and know each other as friends,
it's some kind of blessing.
If ever one day, any of u
ever ever feel that, why is this happening to u .
Do urself a favor by asking what have u done.
how true are to towards ur friends'
If one fine day u woke up to realize everyone's
keeping a distance from ya.
My recent life have been wonderful,
filled with beautiful people around me though.
Getting the care and concern from new friends.
Some interesting notion i would like to share ^^
One new friend asked me this question recently.
hey aj, what are u waiting for,
what's holding u back in everything.
Surprised by her question i told her, i don't know myself.
i know something is not right and missing some where.
and i'm kind of waiting for something, yet not knowing what
is it that i am waiting for.
Just that i know i'm very tired with everything in life.
her answer came a shock to me as she said the common
used words that expressed out what i'm really searching and waiting for.
Strength !!
To my surprise that word hits me like a rock.
A simple word yet holds so much weights.
i'm waiting for the strength to fight,
the strength to motivate everything about me.
For that someone to stand beside me,
giving me all her support and strength to make
life a more wonderful.
whahah .. sad but true,
i can't deny what she said.
she seen thru me.
out of many friends i have met,
only one told me this.
i guess i really need mine this time.
For the reason, i actually thinking of ending
everything once and for all, about a week ago.
So very tired of this life.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Life being kind,
giving me the opportunity
to know some many nice people
recently.
But somehow, there's something in life
i'm still missing.
kind of feeling a little weird,
though the days are always full of activities
and laughters.
I have no complain for this brand new year.
Just that ...i down with a very bad flu and bad cough.
worst of all, new shipments arrived this 2 days,
with the holidays closing up,
don't think i can afford to have any mc.
Guess i'll be relying alot on all ur prayers
for my well being.
wahhaha.
Friends around me,
have been falling ill,
must be the bad weather of Singapore these days.
For those that are still healthy,
stay that way ya^^.
Oh..
Lyn - dear,
haPpy bIrThDay.
so sOrry i wasn't able to make it today
for ur party.
Hope u really enjOy urself tonight ya.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
No doubt life's always full of mysteries,
full of uncertainties as well as failures.
Even if the whole world's going against u,
there's no way of giving up.
For not even god can help u,
if u do so.
Giving and taking in life became part of what life
have to go thru' everyday.
In each relation, new or old.
Or even between friends'
there's always a line not to be crossed.
Friends come and goes,
true fact is hurting,
nevertheless new one follows.
It's important, one have to see and
learn what's thy limits of giving and taking as well.
Today, i come across a couple interesting issue
of life.
To those that i love, and for those i treasure u near.
Maybe i'm still learning everyday,
making new mistake,
placing each foot steps at the wrong place
at the wrong time.
If really loving one is so hard,
than i guess no one on this earth are truly in love.
For those that knows me,
knows that, i'm hard to keep.
I truly wish to be the nicest person
u ever meet,
but i let go of things kind of easy as well.
Guess that's my way of giving and taking.
Loving it - 4th-13th Jan 2008
5:02 AMA brand new year with a brand new starts.
Sure is the case on my side.
Path chosen wasn't easy,
Especially choosing what's worthy and what's not.
Well, kind of glad those days over.
Hell lots of up n downs have been going on,
whaha guess it's for the better .
Through these past 10 days,
glad that i met quite a couple of new friends.
Maybe i should re phase whaha alot !!
Nice people, and sweet babes ^^
glad knowing u peeps.
whahah some of ya might be wandering,
hum.. what's wrong... as my style of writing kind
of different lol.
Well things gotto change right ^^
hopefully for the better.
Humm.. 10 days, alot of things to recall.
basically, days are well spend work work work,
and followed by DRINK DRANK DRUNK !!!
whahaha..
For heart matters'
don't ask me, i'm kind of lost myself.
always trapped within thy questions of heart.
Sad to say,
maybe queen of hearts' not here for me yet.
Well good thing is i come across lots of
PrinCess Of hEartS !!!
luv luv luv !!
Guess, i'm still after all,
a owner of a lonely heart trying to find a place
that i can call home.
3 Cheers to all the blessed lovers out there,
u sure have my full blessing as well as admiration.
i'm loving my life right now ^^
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Friends - 1st - 3rd Jan 2008
12:35 PM
Kind of weird,
just third day after the start of brand new year,
encounter some interesting issue.
Friend or friends,
simple short and sweet word.
Hidden beneath it all,
just a pile load of shits.
I'll be kind, since this the third day.
I know, what's going on.
I am aware of what have been said.
Just one more time, my friend.
I swear i'll return u a BIG FAVOR with interest.
Today, i'm fortunate to realized what are friend you are.
For the lines been drawn to those names carved into me.
Test me not,
For i'm no simpleton like all others.
Infact mind games' one of my favorite.
No matter what, at the end of the days,
Actions speaks louder than words.
For now i'll pray to all whatever gods out there.
May you find no peace in whatever u do,
whatever u dream of,
whatever u long for,
and what ever u seeks for.
For those few friends = maybe 4.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
What's there stays there - 21st - 31st Dec 2007
12:44 PM
Life's moving way way too fast.
So many ups and mostly downs
seems like the path for this year
wasn't an easy one.
Had my share in the pond of tears,
made a few promises to myself.
Never to look back,
for tomoro will be a better and sunnier day
Known some lovely princess in this life,
i'm much pretty sure u know who u are's
never the less nasty asses, that should have just
been erased by lighting's strikes..
Damn..
Been thru life recently with 3 words.
Drink, Drank, Drunk ..
wahhah
guess there's more to come, but sure am cutting down.
Spend a lovely Christmas eve with a lovely princess,
that leave me a sweet memories of spending a night
of giving and joy with total strangers.
whahaha, gal u sure made this christmas a special one.
Like i told u, kind of weird in how we met,
but i would walk with u till the end of this life
my dear friend.
- Don't u ever dare go mia from me ya.
Life !!
So wonderful if u know where to look and
what to ask for.
So Good bye year 2007 rough sailing though,
but thank you all for being there and walk me thru.
Thank you, u made the best out of a Screwed and fucked up year.
Letting the sun set tonight,
for a new beginning tomoro.