Recently many things have been happening,
kind of bz with work and lots of other stuff.
Bonds between friends breaking
Drifting apart because of stupid reasons.
Why must there be so much secrets and lies,
between friends.
No doubt, we live life wearing masks,
to hide away our weakness and fear.
But do remember something,
if we are predestine to meet each other,
and know each other as friends,
it's some kind of blessing.
If ever one day, any of u
ever ever feel that, why is this happening to u .
Do urself a favor by asking what have u done.
how true are to towards ur friends'
If one fine day u woke up to realize everyone's
keeping a distance from ya.
My recent life have been wonderful,
filled with beautiful people around me though.
Getting the care and concern from new friends.
Some interesting notion i would like to share ^^
One new friend asked me this question recently.
hey aj, what are u waiting for,
what's holding u back in everything.
Surprised by her question i told her, i don't know myself.
i know something is not right and missing some where.
and i'm kind of waiting for something, yet not knowing what
is it that i am waiting for.
Just that i know i'm very tired with everything in life.
her answer came a shock to me as she said the common
used words that expressed out what i'm really searching and waiting for.
Strength !!
To my surprise that word hits me like a rock.
A simple word yet holds so much weights.
i'm waiting for the strength to fight,
the strength to motivate everything about me.
For that someone to stand beside me,
giving me all her support and strength to make
life a more wonderful.
whahah .. sad but true,
i can't deny what she said.
she seen thru me.
out of many friends i have met,
only one told me this.
i guess i really need mine this time.
For the reason, i actually thinking of ending
everything once and for all, about a week ago.
So very tired of this life.