Sunday, November 25, 2007
The price - 25th Nov 2007
12:57 PM
Everything in life happens for a purpose,
good things or the bad.
Accept them and face it with courage.
Making right choices are important.
As when a shower of concern is being shown,
or given to you,
it's yours to keep.
Having faith,
knowing you are strong enough,
to face with all odds of what life brings.
For that instant,
maybe i have way too much hope and trust in u,
seeing u gonna pulled off just fine.
Guess i was totally wrong.
There's nothing much left to be said,
for what's shown to me,
thy action, thy speech are just a shit loads of craps.
Doing right whiles' it's wrong takes courage,
guess he's nothing but just a wimp,
taking of full advantage when opportunity arrives.
As for the one.
I'm neither a saint nor a pastor,
but i have never blame on what u bring,
for it's you,
thats' gonna bear the full consequences of
the whole new mistake u just made.
Choice, is an action over wants.
Made it wisely.
For the price's to pay will be high.
Never will i ever or did look down on ya,
for it's not for me to judge.
I can only be there,
at times of needs.
May you find the peace,
the peace that u have been longing for.
Fork of life:
Even till now,
forks of life been place in front of me,
yet i have not make a choice of which road to take.
For;
When the coldness of the nights creeps in.
Tempting me,
clouding my mind,
offering warm for the lonely soul.
Still, i stood still.
Nights came,
as the sound of the forest,
slowly dying off.
Mist of confusion,
blown in,
stealing away every sensible thoughts,
leaving only deceptions and lies behind.
Be true and be strong.
Make no harsh decision.
For no one can help you,
if you don't help urself.
Standing firm,
in the winter's night.
Cold chills down my spine,
holding on to nothing,
just a mere faith of what i believe in strongly.
Faith of finding,
what's been lost long long time ago.
It might be forever,
but time's never the issue.
If i'm living a life,
gonna be filled with nothing,
but full of regrets and heart breaks.
There's a price to pay.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
The long walk - 20th-24th Nov 2007
1:30 AM
So tired after a long walk,
many unforeseen things happening
in the shortest time.
Things of good and bad,
all come as a package.
Mind's set but heart's still
having doubts.
Even though,
life's already moved on
but memories we once shared
still flashes.
Though there's many good
happenings in life,
seems like times' of lost memories
were treasured most.
The walk seems endless,
each steps i take,
is never bringing me nearer to
where i'm heading.
The light at the end of the road
looks so beautiful,
painted with hope, and warm.
Warm, that we all long for,
being hold on to and treasure by the other,
giving the fuels to light up our life.
All my life.. i'm still trying to reach there.
It's hard, painful and tiring.
Guess, that's what make one appreciative
of what they have at the end.
Every little rough patches of life
is a preparation of a beautiful beginning.
May this be the last of mine.
Monday, November 19, 2007
Be found - 19th Nov 2007
10:27 AM
Scented air around,
nights chilled.
Feeling the warm air embracing me,
cocooning with such gentle and tender touch.
So many questions in my mind,
but answer to non.
Coming to a peace with my heart,
missing so dearly,
yet no longer lonely.
Life's changed,
path of life altered.
Though forks of life not chosen,
it's still there.
Leaving my carcass,
as my soul,
drifted away.
Taking flights,
to a place i'm not familiar with.
Images blurred and diminishing.
Everything so light and painless.
Experiencing a new form of trance,
carrying thy weak soul,
so gently and passionately.
Till i'm once again,
be found.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
In love, we trust -18th Nov 2007
9:03 PM
What makes life worth holding on to,
is when u found someone u really love.
A feeling both treasures,
an exchange of hugs and kisses.
On days that are all heated up,
days when it's really cold.
Comforting each others,
with the warm flowing from each other.
Let the world evolving at her own pace,
not affecting by what's happening in the real world.
A world filled with so much deception and lies.
a world so ugly and cruel.
yet..
Lovers living in world of dreams and promises,
assuring and appreciating each existence.
Holding hands,
inter-locking their life with each fingers'.
Leaving no space for doubts.
never to let go.
nevertheless,
journey maybe tough,
but there's no impossibility,
in the name of love,
we trust.
May u find the happiness,
u're searching for, for so long.
For all the dreamz and promises,
we live in.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
The change - 14-17th Nov 2007
12:02 PM
Hours clicked pass,
just like river flows.
Holding on to nothing,
as she washes away everything.
This is how i felt though,
the pass few days was living hell.
Alot of things need to be sorted out,
straightening every single detail
in life wasn't easy.
Wearing a mask day after day
pretending everythings' gonna be ok.
For god sake,
i wasn't born a saint,
either am i that generous
when it comes to certain thing.
I might be an arch angel to the people
i care for.
I'm a fall dark angel for those
i hold grudges on, the devil whom u
will wish u never met.
Through last few days of soul searching,
come across a phase,
this is how it goes;
And lO,
thE bEaSt lOokEd upOn thE faCe Of beAuty..
and bEaUty sTayEd hiS hanD,
AnD frOm thAt dAy fOrwArd,
hE wAs aS OnE DEaD
Stop for that moment,
finding it so familiar,
is it a reflection of my life.
Or is it a msg from my guardian angels'
that's watching over me.
This shortest period of life,
i traveled through,
taught me couple of things.
Feeling a rush within me,
changing me into a whole new
person i've never met.
Hearts tearing apart,
leaving me no other choice
but to face the new me.
Maybe it's time i get the change,
for a heart and personality to match
my look.
What ever the result might be,
may god be mercy with my soul.
Please be wary,
for i've come to collect ur's
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Hope - 13th Nov 2007
12:08 PM
Sitting in the dark,
surround by silence.
I have been lifted,
by the air around me.
Gently caress,
giving soft assurance.
Thru the hectic hours of life,
when everything seems so grey.
Going against the whole world,
and worst of all,
endless battle between myself.
I felt the love,
the warm feeling flowing towards me.
Through the cold weather,
it's you that kept the dying flame inside me
burning.
I have come across many beautiful things in life,
but thru' all these years,
this the only beautiful word i came across.
Hope, a simple word.
Yet every single soul,
clinging on to, so dearly.
If one can read the thoughts of another,
hope is what they will find.
Even though, i have fallen
pass the point of no return.
A feeling so strong within me,
burning away all despairs,
preventing me from giving up on faith.
So simple yet i can't simply put out in words.
Faith in you kept me going,
trying once again to spread
my wings.
Slowly, lifting myself,
little by little off the unholy ground.
I might have failed this time,
but never will i be laid decaying at the
endless pit of life.
Chaining down myself for eternity,
in darkness i got so used to.
One day, i will break those chains.
carrying the name i learn,
to the place where dreamz come thru.
I can feel my wings once more.
Monday, November 12, 2007
Nadine - 12th Nov 2007
11:34 AM
A word that's so beautiful,
to a person like me.
Lost in world of reality,
and fantasy.
Never to be awaken,
yet it tinkles' a sound so comforting.
Leaving the slightest warm,
in thy heart,
that have long forgotten.
For a simple word,
where it's true meaning is more
than anyone can imagine.
Holds the power,
to all who dares to dreamz.
A beautiful word.
A beautiful name.
Dreamz - 11th Nov 2007
10:02 AM
Weathers been bad recently,
more or less it does affect my mood.
There's still this scent in the air,
scent of mixed feelings.
For those in love,
the scent smell sweet n comforting.
Feeling the warm of ur love one beside
in the cold cold night.
As for those lonely soul,
well the scent brought despairs,
lonely hearts crying out in the dark.
Feeling no warm,
but chilled down mine spine.
Look into the mirror,
i see pass beyond what's reflected.
No longer i see myself.
For my eyes, filled up with tears.
All i see is blood,
flowing out from my heart,
with no visible cut insight.
Asking myself,
why does it always hurt so much,
is it the deeper u fall,
the deeper it cuts.
Maybe it's love at first sight,
from the day i saw you,
that day you made my head turn.
No longer i can resist,
but fallen to point of no return.
Having a pair of wings,
that doesn't recall how to fly.
Falling deeper, deeper and deeper.
till the surrounding turns pitch black,
feeling nothing but cold.
In pure darkness i can only silently for.
A place,
where dream comes true.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
The wait- 9-10th Nov 2007
12:27 PM
There's nothing that can express,
how i'm feeling except this picture.
Alone in a world where i don't belong.
Dearest,
nothing in this place,
is more important than u.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Silence of the night - 7-8th Nov 2007
10:05 PM
Strange feeling fills the air.
Somehow in the dark i stood,
things are somehow different.
There's a sense of strangeness
that can't seem to be explained.
Neither empty,
nor filled with rainbows.
Cool breeze carries a scent,
a scent appears to be so comforting
for lovers in love.
But appears so remorseful to those
that are so lost in love.
Here i sat,
facing the intersection of life,
with paths fork out,
yet lost.. not knowing which path to walk.
Letting the silence of the night,
clearing my mind.
Away with all doubts,
away with all dejected feeling.
Feeling of being so so lost.
Wings spread yet can't take flight.
Trapped in this world,
as ankle been binded by a chain.
For the heart is no longer in place.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
This i pray -4th-6th Nov 2006
1:17 PM
Guess passing comments' just natural,
anyway it's been century since human starts talking.
Nothing good comes out from a person's mouth,
after while.
Tell tales, yap yapping becomes so common,
that it became normal day activities.
Who are we to stop all the talking,
human before us have already died trying,
so why even try.
As long as one conscious' clear,
like what i always say " why bother, why ask?"
Isn't that true. haix..
It's not the devils that slay us,
it's us, that slay ourself.
Nothing have been more beautiful than
to be able to be with the one i treasure most.
Waited for days after days,
hoping to see u.
Nothing last, for shit happens.
Beautiful most treasured time,
didn't turn out well after all.
I wasn't born a saint.
Neither did i even get close of becoming one.
My dearest,
whatever the cause or fault lies.
I'll put myself on the cross.
The thin thread that binds me to this real world,
snapped.
Fated, i now live a life worst than ever.
U won't know the pain,
when one closest to ur'e heart have doubts.
I'm sorry.
Deep in my heart,
i felt an anger that burn so strongly.
Feeding away every sanity left.
Placing myself at the edge of erupting,
not knowing why,
or maybe i do know why.
Praying i'll be able to suppress it,
deep down into me.
Lay buried till the end of time.
This i pray.
Monday, November 5, 2007
In my dream - 3rd Nov 2007
2:24 AM
Strange, but recently i have been asking.
The question that's been in my heart for so long.
As i stand still in the world of darkness,
feelin so cold for the longest time.
sensing no warm.
Tried starting a fire,
but the match just won't light.
Tried stuffing myself with dead leaves,
but on rocks i see.
In life, there's too many uncertainties,
why am i faced with the matters' closest to heart.
When night falls,
the only comfort i seek,
is dreaming of u.
Holding u closest to my heart,
allowing non to hurt u,
misleading u with lies,
pictures they paint so perfect.
A soft peck on ur forehead,
silently assuring u,
everything gonna be ok.
Even when the whole world,
turn against u,
be sure.
i'll be there,
just for u.
Even in my dream,
i'm always there for u.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Vanishing - 2nd Nov 2007
2:27 PM
It's believe that love knows no limit.
Guess it's just all wrong and,
just made believe.
We live in different time,
separated by a different dimension.
No one wants to see us together,
reasons they know best.
I pray silently into the night,
for them share the same fate,
walks the same path in their near future.
It's true love is never fair.
As loving a person is purely from deep within.
Non actually bother to find out the answer why,
maybe it's just too realistic.
Lovers live in world of fantasy.
Sharing good and bad along the way.
Learning, discovering and appreciating,
each other's faults along the way.
Dearest, i know loves' never fair,
never a day i complain it's unfair.
Yet constantly assuring u as days passes,
everything just beautiful as it is.
Never did i asked for anything more,
but just for the smile i once fell in love with,
that was lost.
If only there's a contract,
my life for ur smile,
and my soul for ur love.
I might have already sold mine.
Till that day arrive,
my dearest.. i'll still be here.
I'm slowly vanishing away.
Friday, November 2, 2007
Missing - 1st Nov 2007
3:25 PM
My hearts dying,
my souls crying.
As i stood in the dark,
missing u.
Hours clicked pass,
Sitting in the dark,
A word that's so beautiful,
There's nothing that can express,
