This xmas left me a cold chill from within.
Dwelling on a question i can no longer answer..
Have i really change...
i can feel the changes in me...
everything seems to be so icy and frozen...
is my life birthday wishes coming thru...
Every year i'm always wishing for a heart that's so hard, dark and cold.
so as to not get hurt anymore. That suites the look on my face...
Am i really getting it.
kind of frightens me when i can feel i'm becoming more n more
icy towards alot of things...
Or am i just building an ice castle, keeping myself safe in within.
waiting for my right one to melt my world down ??
what have gone wrong ?
one too many weddin dinner i have attended ?
am i losing faith, that i have live my life so strongly on believing ?
icy cold white xmas....
Sunday, November 15, 2009
So many things happen over the last few days ...
Busy with work as new shipment arrived..
well..that's always the case for sales ^^
gonna be pretty tight up for the next 6 weeks..till year end ..
sound like a long time, but guess i'm gonna survive thru as usual.
Well.., lets' sum it up ... what happen last couple of days back ...
- no news from dearest .....
- news breaking up from someone close ...
- someone dear feelin lost, over relationship that's not worth looking back on ....
- so one dear had her sling bag stolen ... - and she's so down - yet we can't do anything to cheer her up .......
- some dear friends' making a whole new mistakes.
- meeting new friends'
- catching up with some old ones'
- Good news of one of the biatch " close buddy - guy -" getting married soon ..^^
- Congrates slutz !! - u have the full blessing of the brotherhood of slutz n biatch !! lol
anyway ... it's a brand new begining of a brand new week ... :p
hope i survive thru all the loads, i'll be carrying ^^
One sentence ... one hell of a week ...
Monday, November 9, 2009
It's been a year since last updated.
Well .. basically life was moving so fast that i could hardly pace anymore.
Falling in and out of relation, with just a blink..
Changing of work environment...
Guess nothing stays the same anymore...
Life is moving in such a fast pace, til i hardly able to catch up.
Loosing sleeps at night is no longer new to me.
I can't deny .. i feel lost at times too ...
well always trying to place a balance in life, is just me.
a libra .. but i have grown to learn something ..
i'm a libra with a deadly sting..
Maybe i'm just tired ...
maybe after all this years ..
i really in need of a long holiday.
Away from all this .. once again back into the sea ..
allowing myself to be embrace by mother nature once again .
I miss the sea.
Lookin forward to next year .. hopefully everything will work out just the way it should have been long long time ago.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
mY dEarest, hOw havE u bEen lAtelY,
aRe u dOinG weLl ?
hOw wAs uR day, hAve u taKen uR meals ?
aRe u feeLinG finE Of wheRe u Are riGht nOw,
dO hanG in TheRe tilL thE Day i fInd u ya.
AftEr aLl tHesE tIme Of wanDering,
i'm yEt tO fInd my lOve.
i dO knOw shE's sOme whEre OuT theRe,
jUst mayBe the tIme isN't riGht.
lOngIng fOr her wArm huGs Of cOnCern.
i Have tO be sTrOnger Than beFOre.
makIng Sure eveRyDay i'm On thE rIghT pAth.
ThAt wIll One DAy lEad me tO hEr aRms.
liVinG One Day at A tiMe beLivInG anD tRustinG
What's lEft in thiS liFE.
bEinG niCe tO oNe, wiThOut ExPectinG anyThinG in RetuRn.
bEinG tHerE fOr sOmeOne in NeEd, Yet nOt eXpectinG thE Same bAck.
mOst oF aLl my lOve, LovinG u aLl thiS while
withOut ExPectIng tO bE lOve in rEtuRn.
aLl i Can dO nOw is.
tO wait...
Sunday, June 1, 2008
Hi friends' ^^,
sOrrY kinD Of held up with liFe ..
lOts have been gOinG on ..
Bz wOrk schedule and heaVy cluBbing,
hehee and aliTtlE bit Of rOmancinG thE moOn.
Whahahah .. guEssS liFe isn'T thAt baD aftEr all,
makes u wOnder at tImes what's lIfe's surprises reaLly
inStall fOr ya !!
well, i tOok mine as it cOmes .. gOod and Bad Ones ..
nOt muCh Of a pRoblem hehee..
*shy maybe aliTtle , but everythings sunny AftEr a gOod niGht Rest.
tHank yOu all thE lOve Ones fOr standinG bY me aLl thiS whiLe ^^
i miGht bE miSsinG in aCtiOn fOr QuiTE a whiLe, bUt nEveR gOnE ya ^^
anYthInG i'm sTill a phOne Call away.
Oh.. fOr clOse friEnds' : TheRe's lOts Of Fake AsSes aRoUnd Us ..
That'S whY i chOse tO mOve On .. aCtualLy waItinG fOr thEm tO sPeak
Of all thE uNtuRe One mOre time .. i mAke a Pay baCk dOuble PriCe. ^^
u knOw me .. hhehee..
MiSs u aLl ...
eRm.. gUesS all thE Past entRiEs disapPeaR fOr a gOod cauSe ^^
ChEers
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Opps whahaha sorry kind of
too bz with work and life ..
erm.. guess life is usual,
filled with ups' and downs'
Well many things are beyond
the control of man kind though.
Alot of us live a life,
want this to happen, don't want that to happen.
Hey .. guess what .. shit happens ^^
Once u are able to see pass that, u will be
doing fine ^^
Never fail to fill my heart with joy seeing
a dear friend finding their true love.
SueAnn chOo ^^ i am so happy for u
seeing u're living a ur life happier and happier
as each day passes ^^.. hehehee found ur prince charmin ya
Way to go gal ^^
For the rest of us, who's still struggling to find the soulmate
Well don't give up hope ^^
just a matter of time when u meet ur's k
As for me hum..
what ever lol whahahaha
guess time will only tell ^^
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Hey, life kind of speeding up
moving at such fast pace.
Think somehow change me into a
much better person as a whole.
After so many met up with old buddies
during the chinese new year period.
Left a thought that kept me wondering
for the past weeks.
Seeing most of my friends married
and with kids.
Put a smile on my face,
yet left a scar in my heart.
Leaving me in deep thoughts,
what have i been doing all these years.
Burying myself with hatred and
never ending of justice not made.
Had somehow turns me into a runner.
Running away every second i can,
unable to face reality.
Even though i put up a strong outlook.
During this period of time,
i have met lots of new friend
as well knowing friends the 2nd time
of my life, after losing contact for more than 12 years.
To the both of ya, ^^
the 2 lovely princess,
Cindy and Jade
Thank you.
Thank you for giving me the opportunity
of knowing both of u after all this years.
Sorry i yet to recall how i know u and how u look
like when younger. hehee ^^
Along the past weeks,
a dear friend look at me,
and ask me a question that shocked me.
Aj, u seem to be searching for something.
i can't give her any answer, cos people around me
and myself do not and can't come out
with what i'm searching for.
Than she said,
U are searching for the
STRENGTH
the strength that will push u forward
in achieving what u have been aiming for.
Her word left me stunned.
For such a common yet simple word of daily live
i can't even see it.
She woke up a big part of me.
which left me thinking.
Thoughts of things maybe i have
dream of yet never dare admit
or see it.
Thank you, Vanessa for waking me up.
Cheers and may u find the happiness u're
searching for and the career u're aiming at.
Thru' this shortest period of my life
so many things happened.
Sorting out my life,
detailing every steps to be taken,
planning what should be done,
what to face.
Filled up my days for the past weeks.
whahaha i can say one thing.
OmG, so damn drained hehee.
but what the heck,
if it's gonna bring me to where i want.
These are very small things even to mention.
Hopefully i can continue blogging for 3 years.
as i have given myself 3 years to
get out all the shit i'm in and bring myself
to the place i wanna be.
Seeing friends married,
having a kid.
I want my little gal as well ^^
a little princess that i can pamper and
dote whahah think i'm going crazy.
But that will be the ultimate goal
i will be aiming at though.
wish me luck ya.
Stumble upon a friends' blog today.
something that kind of upset me a little.
well people, somehow my past threads
have been taking about relationships.
Keep word in a relation,
is to keep it simple.
Once it's simple.
everything will be perfect.
Dearest, love is something
to give without expecting,
trust without questioning.
always placing urself in
the other party's shoe
of how he/she will feel
goes a long long way.
when met up with problems,
work it out hand in hand.
not pushing the blame
to each other,
or bearing all the faults,
in self conviction.
In love there's no such thing.
If they exist, u might wanna
have second thoughts about everything.
If a break up if such a simple
meaningless words that can be uttered
out at the verge of anger.
without any hesitation,
u ought to really spare some thoughts.
Think about it !
Sorry For the slow updates..
hahah i don't even know,
anyones' reading what i wrote lol
whahah anyway ...
Thank you my friends,
bro's and sis's
for being there.